heart is calling for you..

just because i'm hurt it doesn't mean that i'm the only one that hurt so much.
this heart is broken, deeper & hurt more, and i don't know how the best way to fix it.
while seeing your smile i'm smiling,
while seeing you laugh i'm flying,
while seeing you happy, i must be happy too.
but when i can't see you, i'm crying...

probably i'm weak, but i'm trying to be strong.
probably i'm cry a lot, but i still can get back up.
probably i'm physically just all right, but mentally i was broken down.
it's really hard to control my emotion, i tried, but most of it i failed,
it's only you that i need, only you who can calm me down, only you who can raise me up and smile again.
i just cannot live easily without you..i need you so much.
i wish you were here..hold my hands and lean on your shoulder.
but i seem can't ask that much..
just to meet you & happy together is enough.

just for the sake fulfill your biggest wish, that we have to move on.
i keep struggling, with all of my strength, even sometimes with tears.
just for the sake keeping you stay.
i can't lose you.. :(

you may far away, but my heart is calling for you every seconds we're apart.
i may not being selfish just to keep you only mine, because your heart in already torn in two.
i love you, you love me, you love her, and she loves you too.
am i too selfish to wish that your love should be only for one heart?
i think i do...

in this circumstances, i just can't ask more.
I must understand if she needs you more than i do.
I have to understand if you finally choose her rather than me.
I have to prepare myself just for sake keep your wish that i have to be strong.
even i know that actually i only wish you to lean on.
Hope God will give us our best.
your happiness will slowly cure my wounds.

i only have choice to keep strong
keep support you, love you in my own way,
i still stand by you, i promise i will never leave like others.
i may not perfect, but i have sincere love, and i'm trying not to ask any return.
i still stay. i'm faithful. i love you forever...S
i can't ask more than just hope you stay...